Wednesday, May 30, 2012

I am gonna blog b/c I want to remember my feelings!

Here we go!  I am starting my blog today.  I need to because so many things are on my mind now and I want to remember my feelings during the most emotional time of my life.

Quick intro:  My name is Ai and I met my soul mate, Joe when I moved to Cincinnati.  I left Japan when I was 18 years with a curious mind and wanted to explore what's out there.  I have moved around a quite bit but I am happily settled after I met my amazing husband of almost 5 years back in 2007.  Things had been great with wonderful family, friends, 3 loving pets, etc....but I had a dream to pursue MBA, so I told Joe "Let's wait to have kids until I am done with school".

We waited and started TTC seriously after I finished my degree.  I turned 34 and he was 35 at this point.   1st & 2nd month....fmmm, I am tempting, charting, eating certain food to get pregnant.  3rd month...fmmm, maybe, I shouldn't drink caffein, alcohol, etc.  4th month.....I am using OPK.  5th month, WTF?  what is wrong with me?  Went on and on....finally, I told my OB/GN "Something is not right and I am almost 35.  What do you suggest?"  She took me serious (Thank you!) and had me go through CD3 b/w, HSG, CD21 b/w.  HSG was unbearable.  It was awful, period.  Joe also did SA.  The result told us that we have an issue and my OB/GN referred us to a RE right away!

I joined the bump and started lurking and posting on 3T board around that time.  I am so thankful to be part of 3T because it's an amazing support group and I cannot appreciate enough for 3T girls' comments/suggestions/encouragements when I needed someone who understood what I was going through.  I was on CD3 when I had the initial consultation with my RE, so he put me on Femara that day and we did the 3 rounds of IUI afterwards and all of them failed unfortunately...

It's so surreal, but we are already stepping in the path of IVF and I would love to capture my feelings and milestones I go through.....